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foolish_somnium
06 September 2008 @ 05:55 pm
I just spent two hours working on a birthday gift for my boyfriend, because I am finnally able to move and think(I was sick) and then I just realized it looks and is STUPID,so,I probably won't finish.
Idk,I wanted to do something special:'(.But it never looks the way I want it to look.
I'm gonna take a shower.
 
 
foolish_somnium
04 September 2008 @ 04:41 pm
I should get rid of things that make me hurt, but I still have them.I guess I am masochistic in a way.
You won't ever know.
The past is something that should help, not crush you even more.
I don't care, I just want to say fuck and shit and be a bitch, but I don't want to hurt anyone, so I will just hurt myself.
Sometimes I fucking hate I stopped self harming.
Actually, this one night I tried to burn myself with a cigarette. And even that wasn't done propertly. So,I am pretty useless, but whatever.
HE makes me feel happy, I just need to get my trust and everything I gave away back.
LOL okay I'll stop being butthurt.
 
 
foolish_somnium
04 September 2008 @ 01:24 pm

OMG.QUINN ALLMAN.♥

 
 
Current Mood: soresore
 
 
foolish_somnium
02 September 2008 @ 05:17 pm
http://users.livejournal.com/nepenthe_/1264579.html
THAT PICSPAM.
GO LOOK AT IT.NAO!
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foolish_somnium
01 September 2008 @ 07:29 am
UGH.  
School in like,one minute:|.
PRAY FOR ME.
 
 
 
foolish_somnium

Let me introduce you:This the birthday boy.
Mad As A Hatter, Thin As A DimeCollapse )
 
 
Current Location: gay land
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: MIXTAPE
 
 
foolish_somnium
29 August 2008 @ 08:12 pm
Guess who had to stay at home cause he is sick and has a fever?
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ME.
The better side: I will see my bf<3 and friends, I won't miss school.
But I still cried.:(I hate that I can't be with Mom there:(.
 
 
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
 
 
foolish_somnium
29 August 2008 @ 11:44 am

 
 
Current Mood: lovedloved
Current Music: MIXTAPE
 
 
foolish_somnium
28 August 2008 @ 01:39 pm
FUCKING MIXTAPE I SWEAR.JUST.UGHJGTZV DTZED.HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO US?
I want a fucking Brendon manifesto;__;.
Ooooh,guysguysguys.
I'm leaving tommorow,we're going on vacation to Croatia.
I'm gonna miss you all SO HARD.<3333
I will try to take a lot of pictures for you!
LOL maybe I will even have a tan!We have a bet going with my bf that I will be more brown than he is now.LOL we'll see!
<33
 
 
Current Mood: creativecreative
 
 
foolish_somnium
22 August 2008 @ 04:41 pm
- I have an awesome boyfriend.He took me to this park in Lednice at night and it was so calm and sweet and the moon was a light brighter than the sun.The water was dripping, like if it was raining, but it wasn't.
- I kinda don't take my meds?I don't know why, but I should start before I get headaches again and before I get suicidal again.I get suicidal enough with them.
- I think my best friends from school don't really like me anymore.I guess, maybe, I should just, I don't know, disappear.Maybe I would be more useful that way. I sort of really want to cry when I think about it. I really love them. But I guess my love is so selfish and unreal that it's never enough.
- Ignore me.

<333333333
 
 
Current Location: my room
Current Mood: weirdweird
Current Music: A Fine Frenzy