The Northern Downpour video made my heart melt.♥
BTW I am thinking about you guys, just busybus with school:(No time at all.
I hope you all are doing good.
Ily!

I am laughing my fucking ass off:D.
I ALMOST fORGOT WHY I LOVE THEM SO MUCH.
THIS IS WHY!:D
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Guys I am so sorry for not being here at all, but I have to write an five page essay and learn gazillion pages for school and I have NO TIME AT ALL.STUPID GRADUATION:(.
love you all and I'll try to be here more often, I hope you didn't forget about me. I am still the same, just a lot of school work:(Sucks so bad I MISS YOU ALL.
I LOVE YOU ALL AND PLEASE TAKE CARE<333.

I somehow realized that I am getting fat, and just, I hate how I look in general, so I am going to diet a little bit I guess.
I know most of you think 45 kg is a pretty small weight, but I look fat(my hips are so so wide, there is no proportion in my body) so I need to get these off.
I wish I was prettier and just.I should take my meds more often.I am so fucked without them.
I really just want to do something.Idk what,SOMETHING.

OMG TRAVIS BARKER IS IN A CRITICAL CONDITION, AFTER A PLANE CRASH.
CRUSHED,NGL.:(
My homeboy,I hope so hard that he survives.
Ily Travis<33.

I have AIM!:D
Give me your screen names or add me,bbs!:D
Or I will ask you for your screen name and stalk you mwhahaha:D.
LOL sorry.
I am "cough my lungs".

So, Pálavské vinobraní aka Palavian(?) vendabe was happening this weekend.
It started on Friday and it was pretty epic.
( Read more... )
HOW WAS YOUR WEEKEND?

Guys what happened to ambivlence?I missed the important stuff again,didn't I?:(

FUCK THIS.
I really wish I was someone else without all the emotional baggage I carry around all the time.
From my past, from my past relationship.
I guess I will never be too good for anything?I just really want to write something amazing, but nothing comes out right.:(
I just want to do something to myself so badly.
And by something I mean pain.Just for the closure and safe feeling I get when I know I am damaged.I don't know why I want to be fucked up,I just love it.It makes me special.

You guys, I'm so sorry fro being unactive.I wanted to reply to so many things but school is so stupid and today I have to know already 12 pages of Sociology(I studied, but I only can 5 or so.Ooooh, morning education!) and then a whole first graduation question for chemistry--which I won't need at all,and which is a lot too, and um, I don't really need sociology either, so.
The only thing I will need is biology,which we have to study a whole question too and a few things from the second.
I really want to cry,cause I wasn't talking to any of you,and I haven't seen my boyfriend yesterday,and just.Guh.
:(

I just spent two hours working on a birthday gift for my boyfriend, because I am finnally able to move and think(I was sick) and then I just realized it looks and is STUPID,so,I probably won't finish.
Idk,I wanted to do something special:'(.But it never looks the way I want it to look.
I'm gonna take a shower.

I should get rid of things that make me hurt, but I still have them.I guess I am masochistic in a way.
You won't ever know.
The past is something that should help, not crush you even more.
I don't care, I just want to say fuck and shit and be a bitch, but I don't want to hurt anyone, so I will just hurt myself.
Sometimes I fucking hate I stopped self harming.
Actually, this one night I tried to burn myself with a cigarette. And even that wasn't done propertly. So,I am pretty useless, but whatever.
HE makes me feel happy, I just need to get my trust and everything I gave away back.
LOL okay I'll stop being butthurt.

OMG.QUINN ALLMAN.♥

http://users.livejournal.com/nepenthe_/1264579.html
THAT PICSPAM.
GO LOOK AT IT.NAO!

School in like,one minute:|.
PRAY FOR ME.

Let me introduce you:This the birthday boy.
( Mad As A Hatter, Thin As A Dime )

Guess who had to stay at home cause he is sick and has a fever?
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ME.
The better side: I will see my bf<3 and friends, I won't miss school.
But I still cried.:(I hate that I can't be with Mom there:(.

FUCKING MIXTAPE I SWEAR.JUST.UGHJGTZV DTZED.HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO US?
I want a fucking Brendon manifesto;__;.
Ooooh,guysguysguys.
I'm leaving tommorow,we're going on vacation to Croatia.
I'm gonna miss you all SO HARD.<3333
I will try to take a lot of pictures for you!
LOL maybe I will even have a tan!We have a bet going with my bf that I will be more brown than he is now.LOL we'll see!
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- I have an awesome boyfriend.He took me to this park in Lednice at night and it was so calm and sweet and the moon was a light brighter than the sun.The water was dripping, like if it was raining, but it wasn't.
- I kinda don't take my meds?I don't know why, but I should start before I get headaches again and before I get suicidal again.I get suicidal enough with them.
- I think my best friends from school don't really like me anymore.I guess, maybe, I should just, I don't know, disappear.Maybe I would be more useful that way. I sort of really want to cry when I think about it. I really love them. But I guess my love is so selfish and unreal that it's never enough.
- Ignore me.

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